The Horribly Neglected Blog

I've been terrible about updating here. Heck, I haven even been posting my Tuesday literary stuff lately. I'm so bad. And, I haven't been participating in Illustratuon Friday or Inspire Me Thursday...which is really, REALLY bad.

Contrary to what I would have believed, summer hasn't been quieter...it's been insane! House guests coming and going, Noël back in Maple Valley, the renovation at my mom's house, the repairs at ours, etc. The list goes on and on. Crazy summer days.

As much as I'd like to paint, I haven't much. And, to get in a groove, I need to draw or paint more often...I have to be more consistant. I have been forcing myself to sketch or post previous art on my sketchbook site daily. And, I try to draw on the computer when ever I feel the least bit inspired, since space is a constant issue at my house. But computerized art is not the same as the actual thing. I really need a space that's my own, a space where I can, start a paint, make a mess, leave it and come back and not have to worry about it getting in everyone's way.

But, I want to paint. I really do. I want to experiment and play around and then I want to create something worth looking at. I'm inspired by the artists in the blogging community, but at the same time, they make me feel small...inadequate. This gets me discouraged and then I don't want to draw or paint. Welcome to my pity party! I hate that about me.

In time, it always seems to come back. Hopefully it will again this time, too. I feel like this clock is ticking somewhere in the background of my life. Tick, tick, tick... 'you're not getting any younger , Anne'... tick tick tick. So, I force myself to create. I think I'm screwing myself there. I've lost the joy in painting, and this is not a good thing. I need to teach myself to relax and paint for the fun of painting alone.

So anyway, that's what's happening with me right now. That and trying to catch up on bills, since I over-spent in July...and that never helps with my overall demeanor. But, I will get caught up...there is a wee little light at the end of the tunnel...I can barely see it but it's there.

I will post a fun literary thing here in the next day or so. I need something fun here. =)